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October 17 Specially to the QueenUnexpectedly, nearly two months fleeting and so many things have come forward without omen. Queen seems to have both fun and sadness in Boston, and actually I am a kind of happy for you. Moreover the good score of Microbiology cherished me a lot. The married guy and sudden love you embraced ensures me that you will not end up with the boyfriend without college education and then you wrote in her log "No one understands me." So what? In the narration of your silly affair with the guy, I asked you a plenty of "So what?" Perhaps as the time goes on, not only the welcome reason engulfs my tenuous romantic dream about love, but also the cold and stubborn realism conquers my basic principle to judge. We told about nothing concerning the affair on the phone, no even mentioned. Virtually there are so many things of more importance that I cared about in your life now and after all these years relationship, I really have confidence in you to settle this well and I know you've got any reason that I was going to argue with you that it is nonsense to fall in love with a married guy. However, thers is always a but, all right. I have forgotten that you are just a well- fed girl studying lonely in USA without any acquaintance, and in this world many wise girls have affair with married ones even for more ridiculous reason.
The mortal aspect of this lies beyond the question and you know it, and whether he likes you has to be put away. As once I said to Chacha, no matter what you decided at last for yourself, the consequence anly matters to me is whether it benefits your own happiness and dignity. Once you can go through this, whatever the way you take, I am OK with it, but how about yourself ? Maybe to many people in the world, being in the name of love endows them the very right to do anything. Negative to me ! I know you know the love is broad, your parents, your friends, and me all care about you with deep love, would they be happy and proud with this ? What is love actully? You know yourself well and I know he would be no the last one or something, liking him and enjoying his company while he is available, respecting him and being friend with him while he is not, that is the bottom line. Life is no perfection, and this world may never be ideal as we thought it would be, but at least, make yourself clear from all of the really terrible mistake before it is too late. I said if you wanna have sex with him then go ahead, no big deal, like I don't care at all. However, I cares a lot and to me the things more serious is the thoughts haunting around in your mind and then doing harm to your school career. Make me proud of you and live independently, please. At least promise me you will try. Don't make yourself excuse like "I am true self" or something else. Remember what we have learn in Biology, all the selfishness and ego, that is the true selves for all the organisms in or around this earth and you will not like to be. Be reasonable, long-perspective and non-selfwilled , at least in this big issue. You are lovely and great not because you are true self, but because what you wanna surpass and have beyond the ordinary.
Love you, my dear Queen. |
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