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March 29 creating dream as a destinationA Movie is a concentrated Life. Life is a long, non-climax and non-strident-clash movie. Sometimes, my dream is like a movie while a movie sometimes seems a gorgeous dream to me. I said I would like to be a movie-producer in further to some friends. However, their respondence surprise me so much that I cannot remember what exactly I said. Isn't that crazy or something? How would they just follow my stupid and unrealistic blah and said what I should do and what I could do for them? How Sweet my friends are ! It is not because I really can do this but because they all believe in dream, or they just would like to.
To be a scientist, studying the topic and learning till I pass away. It is my attitude to life, not just a career or dream. My dear mummy said there is supposed to be one offer for me. Cute and Sweet ....
March 27 The fourth rejectionThis morning I received my fourth rejection email from UC, Berkeley. It is my dream-college even back in high school and it ranks high in USA. I know it is so little the chance to get the offer though I was sort of lotting on Miracle. I had a dream last night and the hills in Berkeley campus are so cute and real, not knowing it was a farewell. Is that true? I was not so dispointed as I am supposed to be. Yesterday I told KunKun not to give up so easy and hold on bravely. Yep, be brave.
Dorm Exchanging, Six-day-work, salary cutting, application rejecting.... This is the lowest point of my life.
All this year, I was sort of thinking that I am going overseas because of the fate and my plan of life. It is a contract between the lord and me. Stupid, ha ? I believe in myself too much that sometimes I just guess it is going to happen, and then it happens all the time. I can feel it. But now, I doubt it. If I cannot get any offer from the universities I have applied, I have no idea about what to do with my life. Dumped by the lord. March 26 Taurus & AriesI am absorbed in fortune-telling by means of Zodiac. Back in middle school, Chacha is crazy about this sort of thing and I refuted her that if these thing is true, then should all the people who are born in this period be the same? She even read the book of "Zodiac and fate", which is written by a French as a serious and authoritative composing.
Yesterday when I came across the website about "B Blood and Taurus" and "B Blood and Aries", the description astonished and interested me. As Chacha said, the adventage of the both looks exactly like me. However, the "advantage" in her defination system is not so general and social that would be considerred as advantage in society. In the opposite way, some of the portrayal is regarded as a basic sign of obstinacy and vapidity to some rambling "artistic, uncertain" romanticist and the "strange-personality-seeker". What a coincidence the numen of Taurus and Aries is Venus and Mars, who love each other. I was born in the middle of the two.
At present, she does not believe this at all. She uses the same words that I used to refute her to refute me ! It is doomed that we both did, does. will not believe the things that can not be touched. However interesting and compellent they are!
A dream: My best friend's girl-friend turns out to be a boy ! Seriously, it was a nightmare. March 18 When the night fellAs the night falling upon the city, the gloomy, dim aurae of the city faded away. The night scene of Beijing is more gorgeous than it is at daytime. One day, when we walking along the Changan Street at night, it felt that we are back to high school, considerring we own the entire world -- impossible is nothing! Stupid, ha ! Still bearing a dream as a grown-up, silly and supercillous ! The various light of International trade centre delivers a impressive and material portrayal of modern and prosperous sociey. "If the prime is doomed to roll around, the love always staves, then what is left when the friendship went pale?" There is no real perfecion and all the braw idea of life is sort of my own wishful thinking. Though at last I have something that I dreamed of years ago, I am so sophisticated to be chuffed up by this sort of thing.
This metroplis contains so many things and link so many things. Yesterday night I saw the night club on my way home accidently, which I had been seeking for a whole night with my friend. Not so impressive. March 05 Never so far away from dreamI received the third rejection letter from George Washington University four days ago. The sky has never been so blue before, so am I. A friend did not got his visa for Germany, neither the rejection letter, though he has got the ticket to Jena. Kunkun said she is going to have nothing except a boyfriend. We all have consider this world too rationable and regular, oppositely and unfortunately, the world has never been open to the talented youth to perform their legend. However, I was, am and will be brave enough to dream my dreams and make them come true, no matter what kind of balk ahead.
Never been so far away from dream, and then it does not seem to be a dream at all. It hurts.
Instead of optimism, the inflexibility is the key of my character. |
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