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July 18 实迷途之未远，觉今是而昨非First of all, I have to confess and give the battle that I may have never been capable to express my emotion and describe my idea briefly and legibly in English as I do in Chinese. At least, the so limited and constrained culture and history of Western I have been acquainted, stifles the flow of my thoughts. Hence sometimes I had better name the topic after my familar Chinese poem.
Back to the issue.
Dan is back from the journey in Germany. One year has slipped away since our last date and dinner in China. She was travelling around in Europe while studying in Stockholm. That is a kind of dream to her and she made it happen. The skim of Raven's Space reminds me so many things and wonder in the past(cutting out about three hundred words of adolescence, crush and so forth ), and, the conclusion is, that I had not led my life in an ideal or prefect way due to balah, balah, but I can exert myself to get there. The complain and comparision is as superorganic, vain and fruitless as the pursuit for prefection and I would not like to focus on that any longer.
After the revaluation of wealth, rank and beauty, resently I have re-revaluation them and back to the balance point that I had once passed. Being a lady, means talking what the lady talk, behaving what the lady behave.
July 13 TriviaI believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky..
Impossible is nothing...
I am genius..
It is not stuck-up, but the building of my self-confidence.
A: My IBM
After 2.5 years of my torture, the broken screen, the lose of some key on the keybroad, and then it comes across the most intolerable failure -- dumb. Due to this malfunction, it cannot entertain me at the least level and turns out to be a website-reader and nothing more. As the wealth of the society rises, the variety and comfort enchant its member to wonder how would people before this age lead their lives. However, the basic request of this open ticket to this wonderful era is money, as the same as what the ancient people struggle for as "beast". For instance, if I wanna dump this IBM for a new baby, I have to cut at least seven thousand RMB.
B: Job hopping
Low-paid, jerk boss, awkard situation and the distance from the flourish of modern Industry ... The first is the most important. Would I get a high-paid job ? God bless me, for the sake of the fee.
C: Application
Why the silly get forty thousand dollars while I can get none? I have applied University of Rochester, dreaming the coming hot pie from the heaven. The decision has not been made by the Biology Department of Florida Technology Institute, and I am still hang in the air. The bright side is that, finally, I get the information. By the way, I have not paid the application fee. Is that the reason they tortured me ?
D: Cyst of liver
My father's physical check-up announces the recurrence of cyst of liver. It's congenital, it is benign, it is just a cyst of water in the liver and it does not matter ... I know, I know, I know even better than the people who said so. However, he is my dear dad, not someone nobody care about. It is a big deal. I know the rule of the nature, I know the wax and wane of human being. But if there is anything method for me to get the cyst out of my dad painlessly, I would try.
Recomposed from the lines of Ewan McGreger in Moulin Rouge " Money, money is the most splendid thing, all you need is money." How would someone dislike money and pay so little attention to wealth ? At least, if I have enough money, I would set myself a new IBM for business and I won't have to rewrite this article due to the cut-off of electric of the PC on my bureau. July 12 Passport OK, no VisaThese days, too much occurs to me. On Monday, I went to the Embarkation/Disembarkation Administration Office and made my Passport done. Along the way from the subway station to the Office, a handsome New Yorker was talking with me. It's good to find out that I can communicate with an English-speaking easily and smoothly. After form-fill-out and queue-stand, the clerk told me that I would get my passport seven days later.
Then, in Wednesday morning, my dear Jeanne sent a email to inform me that the George Washington University has run out of time to get the international students visa for 2007 Fall semester, I will have to accept the deferral and enroll in Spring 2008. I am dying ! However strong I am, I don't deserve this kind of thing! After the insensible desperation, the sadness and humiliation overflow me and call on the thought of killing myself ! .....(cutting out two hundred words about suicide and self-remorse) . Self-heal, resolvent-working-out, and balah balah with Qin for four hours in the restaurant, I was better. Setting in the last shuffle back to my community, the night was deep and I felt safe. The days have passed away as they always do, but when the something happens, you cannot just overcome it like it is a story of others. July 02 Queen is going with meBad news and troublesome come all these days, finally and fortunately, Queen got the AD from Northeast University, which is located in Boston. It is so good to have someone close to go somewhere together and my destiny with her would at least last more one year. We will go there, I guess. |
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